The Shimmer
There’s a shadow in the window and it looks so much like you
A remnant of the failing life
And all we thought we knew
It comes and fades with all the glory
Of the world that should’ve been
Yet here we are and there you’ve gone
Beyond worldly contradiction.
That should matter, right? The endless time that never lasts
When you said it would be alright?
All memories are filled with promises
And the things you had to say
For the sake of fading childhood dreams
That prayed the shadows away.
You have always been the world and the spinning and the globe
And though the clock kept turning
There was always silence and then snow
Seasons were only seasons and time was just a lie
Until it wasn’t and you weren’t
And we had no courage for goodbyes.
I’ll never last forever though that’s often how it feels
The time that flew so quickly by are pictures now
They’ve fallen from the reel
The lense will never focus on the emptiness of you
All you are is the space I lost
Between the echo and the new.
We should’ve known the way of things and everything you were
The twilight and the caverns vast
A lifetime in a blur.
We should’ve seen that you would leave
And I’d have to watch you go
To all that I’m afraid to see and all I’ll never know.
There’ll be no stone in grass alone or spades of broken dirt
The leaves will turn and seasons die
To leave me on this earth.
And you will be the memory of the life that used to be
The breathing and the life that was
Forever growing green.
I saw the silver in your eyes even when it tarnished gold
The shimmer and the glimmer though
I’ve never believed in souls
We saw you walk away from me in clouds of ashen wind
To all you never were and where I’ve never been.
One day soon I’ll see the sign of a world no longer mine
The usher that I’ve never seen who points in finite lines
To autumn leaves and what may be
Even if it’s a dreamless sea
My eyes will close in open stare and no matter what,
No matter where,
In that vacant space past passing life, I hope I’ll see you there.